Octoberfest 2006

Last year, was the best..and of cause..this year will be the sad time.

Double Trouble..am I asking for?
I didnt want to but I have to go through the painful period again.Couples holding hands in the park...dreads me...i felt the emptiness, the coldnest and jealously too. They are not wrong, neither am I. I asked myself, why can he hold her so firmly and not letting her fall! Makes me think of the day at the long escalater in Moscow metro station. He holds me firmly too and says will protect me so that i will not fall off the long escalater.
But i fell many times for the past 2 weeks...who picked me? who will help me stand up again?
I begin to hate why I had not left for better. I want to be sombody..and sombody must also own me!